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OY.

Enjoying the days spent doing laundry, grocery shopping, house fixing, cooking and Social Drive stuff.
  – working on it.
Loving your body the way it is, even though your belly isn’t flat, nails are in constant need of polish and your arms have no definitely/tone to them.
  – working on it
Making sly comments to George about vacationing – he gets the point, and as soon as you choose a date/place and airfare you’ll go somewhere.
  – working on it
Not taking on the stresses/problems of your family members, not trying to fix everything.
  – working on it
Stop assuming that you’re always wrong, or that when shit hits the fan it’s your fault – take yourself more seriously, professionally and just give yourself more credit!!
  – working on it
Get up earlier and go for a run/to the gym
  – working on it
Make more time for friends and make your own plans, don’t rely on the bf so much
  – working on it

This is my “work on it” list 🙂  For my health and self esteem these are things I reallllly need to work on!

Things I’m happy with:
– Stubbornness levels have decreased since high school (bigggg relief to my family)
– Being okay wearing a one piece! I use to squeeze myself into a 2 piece to fit in but a couple years ago I realized how foolish that was! haha Not only do I look better in a one piece by I feel better – so much more comfortable and there are some really cute ones out there nowadays! 🙂
– How I handle most tense topics with George, I can’t remember the last time we had a shouting match. We are pretty good at verbalizing our problems; at the end of the day we both just really want one another to be happy which makes for a great relationship 🙂 Mostly when I’m upset or something annoys me rather than attack, I slowly approach it and/or make a joke about – both are effective.
– Making more time to read a good boook
– When I’m unhappy with my life I change it, sometimes it takes me awhile to do so but looking back at the last year I see what I’ve done and I’m really proud. I take chances, try new things and if it doesn’t work out, at least I tried… global rescue `~ restaurant/social media consulting ~ fail but then found HFM ~ bought a car ~ took my sister and I to Italy for a week ~ got a laptop and am now attempting to start my own company (w/a partner).
– The fact that I just wrote out all these things that I like about myself. Typically I’d see this as bragging or boasting but it’s not, and it’s good that I’m realizing this… it’s okay to give yourself a pat on the shoulder once in awhile 🙂

You all know I’m obsessed with this kid, right?

Wow. What a weekend. Ikea trip, grocery store, apartment stuff, sliced finger, ER visit, visit with my family, visit with his family, business meeting, quality time on the couch, coffee, cookies, pizza, cribbage, oh and did I mention the ER visit?

It was a busy, hectic and tiresome weekend. I’m glad my hunkabunka hottay is doing better, he jabbed his finger with a steak knife and yikes, it looked like a scene right out of Dexter! A couple hours in the ER and 5 stitches later we were in the car en route to my family’s house.

PS. It’s freaking hot out. I’m pretty miserable. And I really don’t feel like doing anything work related. Oh woe is me…

Me – “Ok, let’s meet in the bathroom at 10pm and have a tooth-brushing date, deal?”
Geo – “Great!” Big smile, smooch on the cheek and off he goes.

Finally set the laptop aside, turn off the crappy show I had on and call out, “ready, hon?!”.

No answer.

“George…” I head down the hall, assuming he’s got his headphones on, talking to his co-pilot, fellow comrades and or commander (yes, I’m dating a man who chooses to spend some of his spare time playing video games).

Nope, he’s not in the office/mancave (FYI – never call ur hubbys mancave a “play room”, apparently it’s not that amusing. hehe)

Head to the bedroom. Sprawled out on the bed, laptop/cellphone/fuelband surrounding you, fan & tv on.

You fell asleep. You stood me up on our wicked hot bathroom date. LEFT ME HIGH AND DRY.

And I couldn’t be more in love with you. You stay up too late most nights and there you were, all wiped out, with all your toys covering the bed and I, in that moment felt so very lucky to have you in my life.

Your stinky breath and all 🙂

It’s been a long day and you’re stressed out. The job is harder than you’d expected, your boss is on your butt about everything and you’re feeling in over your head. I really do get it.

However.

This does not mean you can be rude or bossy to me. So please think before you speak because next time my response won’t be, “oh, ok, sure not a problem”. Next time I will kung fu your butt and sneakily delete all future meetings from your calendar. Take that!

😎

Sincerely,
Your Co-Worker

1. Modern Family is on tonight and from 9 to 9:30 I will be laughing my tush off! 

2. My closet is always going to seem bare on days that I’m indecisive and/or grumpy. Most mornings start off with me carefully shifting around pieces of clothing in my closet (as if the assortment changes on a daily basis), whispering to myself, “hmm what am I going to wear”… it’s to the point where George now mocks me for it. On grumpier days its, “ughh, I have NOTHING to wear!”. Working on the whole tantrum thing

3. There was a point at dinner last night where George grabbed my hand and we were both thinking about how much we mean to one another.

4. I over-think everything and under value myself. I struggle with allowing myself to believe I’m worth a decent salary or that my thoughts are as great/important as my coworkers. Too often do I question myself and it REALLY has to stop. Like right now. 

5. Lastly, George is running late and I’m sitting on our steps (locked out of apartment) with a box of Oreos, this, my friends is bad news! “I know” they will be thoroughly enjoyed!!

Digging through a pile of old stuff the other day and I came across a notebook that I titled, “Quotes Kept Close” and instantly starting browsing through the pages. I wrote down quotes from movies, books, friends, love interests, lovies and so on. Here are some of my favorite: 

“Love should be given freely” – Desmond Tutu

“How weightless words are when nothing will do” Philip Levine 

“But he reached for her hand and she reached for his hand and they leaped out the window, holding hands” – Brian Doyle (9/11)

“Me – what do you want to do tonight? Alex – have so much fun!” hehe

“Style alone constitutes a writers biography” – Gail Sher

“Sometimes I like to just sit by myself and think” – Friend, Abby Reid 🙂 

“Once all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by” – Carbon Leaf song

“City life: millions of people being lonely together” – Thoreau

“When I’m with you the world feels bigger and better” – Mike (bf) I love that my 20 yr old heart wanted to keep this quote close.. 🙂

“Pretty girls shouldn’t have to open doors” – Dave (boy) I’m sure this made my heart swell!

“Should I have slept with him” – L (friend) LOVE this because who else should you have to ask that question to besides yourself!? haha College years, gotta love them.

“Every phase in life is enjoyable because you’re in it” – My Mom! 🙂

“I’ll walk away with you, we can hold hands” – Me to L. Friendship matters when love is failing.

“No matter where the mind goes, the heart always remembers” – Me to myself. Da and Alzheimers.

“I”m grumpy. My computer isn’t working and I’ve got the hiccups.” – Jackie

“I spoke Hebrew to them and they got boners” – Stacy – no idea what this is from but I laughhh. haha

“The sky is the hemline to heaven” – From the novel, “Loving Frank”.

“What Lyndsey was trying to say to me before, while she was trying to flatter me. Well, I could say the same about you, you don’t realize how great you are.” – Michael T. Such a sweet and clear memory for me.

“If you worry about all the what-if’s, you’ll miss all the could-be’s.” – Andy (bf) I forced/pressured this relationship and although it was disastrous, I learned so much from it and from him.

“The most important decision a person will ever make is choosing the right person to spend the rest of their life with.” – Mom

“Wow, look at the waterfalls (on the side of the highway), it’s like we’re in the rain forest!” – Mattie

“To have faith is to believe unconditionally” – The Four Agreements (novel) 

This post has reignited my interest is quote keeping. I think I’ll pull out this little notebook for good.

Happy Saturday!